I had fun today with some friends; We chatted and played some games on VrChat. However, even afterwards I still feel sad. Is it that Im sad that it’s over for now, or is it because of my mindset I had for months? Am I always bored with life? Either way, I’m trying to stay positive to an extent

Updated my rentry page to include some more info about me. If you want to know, check out the links tab. Also, there’s some old stuff still one there that needs to be changed

coincidentally, I’m also starting to think if I have imposter syndrome. I was feeling good about making art earlier, then suddenly I wasn’t feeling it

Should I make a 2022 in review post and finally explain what was going on with me throughout the months? Could potentially be triggering since it contains some sad stuff

Why does my mood change to sad the next day? I keep having negative thoughts even after communicating with one of my friends. I feel like I should talk about what went down from April to this month, but it’s kinda triggering and it would ruin peoples moods. I’ll try to stay somewhat positive

I woke up today feeling down as usual, talked to my mom about life, and she recommended that I should message my friends again after months of doing nothing. At the same time, I saw one of ClunkyDot’s news posts about the 2022 year wrap up and it have me a bit of courage since I still liked being their friend.

After deciding to clean up my room closet a bit, I mustered the courage of dming my friends and managed to do it. Safe to say, I’m glad I did. After talking to Susie for a bit, I feel comfortable. Things are still the same, sad and pessimistic, but after getting caught up to date, I have a bit of hope.

Speaking of up to date, I got to know more info about some people I haven’t seen in a while. Although I still don’t like them, I don’t entirely hate them. Tbh I’m glad they’re doing well and my friend managed to get along with them months later. I’ve been keeping them blocked for months, but now I feel like to ease the grudge a bit.

Sorry if I’m not a good describer but I just wanted to say that im doing okay and I’m glad I met julian and susie this year! I may still be edgy and have been inconsistent this year, but I hope 2023 is good

Like the title says, I’ll play again VrChat tomorrow. Maybe it can help me feel better for a bit, who knows. I must say however, that I’ve still felt the same even while enjoying it. Some worlds don’t interest me much as they used to and I lack avatars that fit me except for two. Maybe I just prefer my friends over strangers lol

Got on my oculus since I’ve decided to try VrChat again. I tried playing among us with some people; it had a few little kids here and there but it was a decent experience. At some point, the game crashed. Idk if it was because I was in that world but I hope I doesn’t crash or lag much when I’m playing with friends.

minutes ago my oculus won’t let me play VrChat, but my mom and I eventually figured out the problem. I think I’m comfortable with playing with my friends in VrChat again whenever the time comes. Mostly just feel like talking, but I don’t mind playing games.

messing around with neocities a bit. if anyone wants to check out the site, just click here. it's not much since it's just a test and i'm not experienced with website coding, but im open to ideas.