My parents told me about stuff regarding school and my life. People have given up on me and my grades are still low. School workers doubt I'll ever get a diploma, and I feel they're right. My dad told me multiple times to "buckle down" since I'm almost 18; I have to get a job and start paying for things. I also might potentially have to do summer school for the failed classes. I've always feel like I'd never achieve much in life. My parents say I'm smart, and yet I just lay in bed doing nothing or playing on the Xbox, I never do my schoolwork at home, and every time I try to be positive and motivated I always get let down. I'm destined to fail, even if I become happy and lively just like in early 2022. I'll never achieve anything. I have two options according to my parents however: graduate high school or take a job that involves getting extra help but not get a diploma. There's also a third option I still have thoughts about, and that's just killing myself so I'm not a burden. I'm in a endless loop of irony and contradictions, so of course I'm back relapsing into depression again. idk if i'll do third option again; all it does is traumatize people and make people think I'm "suicide baiting". I'm forced to live, and yet people don't want me to die. Maybe time will tell, and as always time will inevitably tell me I'm a failure. my ex friends were right about me. After all I'm just the non empathetic guy who gets pissy at anything I don't like. "soos soos look cassandra is feminine and inspired by a design you don't like you gonna complain??? gonna throw a fit again? big baby need a bottle??" "oh soos you better not suicide bait again lolz!!!!!" "soos stop fetisizing cassandra you're not doing it right he's male!!!!" "soos stop shipping cassandra with nene stop it stop it!!" "soos you're the next yanrinalla haha you're being compared to a problematic person" "you're a lolcow and everything you do is a joke like your art" "soos stop trying to improve we need to remind you about your mistakes again" I may have a poker face but I am literally losing my mind mentally. But at the same time, it's kinda funny

I wouldn't be surprised if that one ex friend thinks suicide is "the coward's way out".

Apparently someone on vk drew ZertyClone and ngl it looks really cool. Just found out about this now after looking up ZertyTv on Google. No clue what the artist meant by shield group though

HAHA PRANKED

I love Cassandra x Pico now. For this new change, I'll be making Cassandra a cisgender female and more feminine. She's no longer an alien now, she's a demon. Pico is a buff masculine man who is dom and loves Cassandra. Cassandra having a crush on Pico is a factual statement and Cyclops was obviously right. Cassandra x Pico is canon, regardless if the school shooting happens or not

I was gonna say something about me getting 1k fourm posts, but I just found out the General forum closed days ago. What happened?

Maxi is back again. If you know Zerty content and heard of her, please block her

Just wanted to say this here in case I'm blocked by some people: I want to reassure that my attempt wasn't anyones fault. I wasn't threatening suicide or being manipulative. It was originally done because life irl was getting worse for me and I did not intend to make it seem like I was baiting. It was my choice, and not because of the mistakes I made

I did go through with it, but eventually I was sent to a hospital to stay temporarily. The doctors checked my vitals and monitored me in a room for hours. I spent time talking with my mom and got some rest. It’s confirmed that I will be going to a inpatient hospital called "Pine Rest". I’m going to better myself and try to change. I’m not exempt from consequences and I will not beg for pity. I wasn’t doing well yesterday because life irl wasn’t good and got too emotional at other stuff. I was immature. I just want to get better. I’m sorry that I attempted to take my life. While I believe suicide isn’t selfish, I understand how this has affected people, and I will not try to do it again. I want to be positive again so I can stop making irresponsible decisions, so this inpatient hospital should help me heal. I’m going to make a change.

It has come to my attention that I’ve been misinterpreting intersex people and my depictions of cassandra x nene has made lesbians uncomfortable. They were painfully stereotypical and I was unaware. I feel ashamed of myself knowing I’ve been doing this for months, and it also gives me second thoughts about the way I draw Pico.

I’m sorry if my art has offended or made others feel discomfort. I’ll take down my stuff later