Okay, now say something please idk what to do on my birthday

I know no one cares about my unhinged news posts but I’ll just say it: My birthday is in 7 days. I’ll be turning 17. Frankly, I don’t really care. I missed out on my other friend’s birthdays and life is getting worse so I don’t really feel like I should be celebrated. I’m still existing unfortunately, but some people are glad I’m alive. If you’re somehow still following me, good job I guess. You’re a kind person or whatever, you did your best etc etc reminder that I block people most people follow

I made drawings with people lol

The loop is real. Everything repeats while I’m painfully aware. My life was predetermined to have me in a constant loop of happiness and sadnesses. I hope after my lifetime, my new brain and identity won’t be problematic. Also, if you feel guilt, shame, or generally “off” around me: it’s not your fault, you did your best, I’m just a burden you should quickly abandon before you get traumatized by my ventings.

I can’t save myself, but the people who follow me can still have a good life.

I may be gloomy and edgy all the time, but I wanna thank y’all for sticking around. I feel like I’m getting a little better

So, I still like Pico’s School content even after my months of gloomy activities. I think I decided that I’ll continue making Pico’s School drawings and drabbles, but I won’t be involved with the community, mostly the Twitter one. After being in the Twitter Pico’s School community and checking it out again, I don’t want to participate there anymore. It’s really uncomfortable being there and I don’t see myself being in it any further.

I also don’t like the popular or well known users who mostly talk about it on Twitter; good or bad, they do some uncomfortable stuff and support questionable people. Nothing personal, some of them are good people, but the ones I’ve seen? They’re either controversial, condescending, problematic, or something else I can’t explain well. Idk there’s something about them that rubs me the wrong way?? I know this probably comes off as rude but I can’t describe it well, someone let me know if they feel the same way. I just don’t want to go back there to say "I still don’t like Red Apple Cassandra and it’s devs" and wake up the next day to see people accusing me of being a fetishy asshole who’s jealous of popular people or whatever. I’m still upset about being in controversy that was unrelated to me.

Anyways, I’m not gonna tag my art just to be safe. I’ll update this later

Maybe I’ll live longer, just so I can share my content. Still want to know what people would think. Just thinking and rambling

Why

Why

People are wiser than me and I’m just a burden whenever I get sad. I could just leave and things wouldn’t change negatively. I was gone for seven months, what’s the point of not removing myself entirely? Some people I once knew would be happy not having to see me again; It was all my fault for being dumb on April