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I know for a fact that one day I’ll be dead from suicide eventually. I don’t when, or how long til then, but I know that no matter how happy I am or appreciative I am for stuff I like, I feel like death is my likely hood in the near future. I just want the depressing loop to stop. 

I know, I have unfinished things I still

need to post, I’m just struggling.

Also my parents had another fight yesterday that sounded like a divorce could happen, but knowing how typical it is I wouldn’t be surprised if it never happens the next day. I did learn that mom loves to say shit like Dad having an ego to make herself look better despite apparently bringing an argument up and dad at one point went to a strip club ‘and sat there’. If I had to choose between one parent or the other, I would choose the third option: die.