I have my reasons for why I'm uncomfortable with some things, but then again I've been living under a rock for most of 2022. Although it's 2023 and things have changed for the better, I still feel nostalgic for early 2022, back when pessimism was fully on my mind. Before my downfall. I feel like a selfish jerk though. I'm sorry for being stubborn.

I talk to my mom about a similar thing to this and now I’m questioning if I should put myself out there. I have dislikes and a dni list so I can stay comfortable, but my friends have been able to make amends with others and have fun. I want to share my opinions, express myself more. However that might be hypocritical since I have disinterests and discomforts.

I feel if I keep being myself, I might lose my only friends and the things that keep my sane. I don’t know what to do, this year isn’t starting out well.