The loop is real. Everything repeats while I’m painfully aware. My life was predetermined to have me in a constant loop of happiness and sadnesses. I hope after my lifetime, my new brain and identity won’t be problematic. Also, if you feel guilt, shame, or generally “off” around me: it’s not your fault, you did your best, I’m just a burden you should quickly abandon before you get traumatized by my ventings.

I can’t save myself, but the people who follow me can still have a good life.